Do you think I can reconcile with my ex? And do you even think I should try?

I know it hard to see that the abuse is really killing you inside and it makes the person you have become, i know That is how i was in my marriage and still am sad to say... my husband is the one that took control of me from day one did not see it for years! it is funny how one day you do wake up and see what is going on around you is not good for you or the kids!! your family no matter how hard you try to keep it together start to fall apart in front of your own eyes!! knowing deep down this is not good for them but keeping it together for them crazy1!! but at least you are free!! you might not feel free but you will soon enough my sister once told me once i do leave my husband i will say to myself why didn't i do it sooner!!! and now i can't see that but i want to see it and feel it!~ i know i can be happy without him! one thing i need to learn is i can't have a man make me happy cause he won't,or maybe there is one out there that will but if not. i need to find happiness in me!!! and i am learning! and i hope you do too!! yes it good to have someone to love and love you back but that is everyone dream but sometimes we find the wrong people so if were happy with ourselves then we will not need to stay with a person anymore that does not respect us or love us it will be easy to walk away next time from that abuse. bully behavior! and yes you do need to move forward and find life all over Again!!! and forget about your dysfunctional relationship1!!!!! cause there is someone out there that will love you so good!!! So Good Luck!!!