What Am I So Afraid Of (Feel So Humiliated)?

most therapist don't know empathy, they are text book learners. I give you credit at least you have your fingers into the underlying issues, that's a big step taken already in your part. Awareness is difficult and finding an outlet will seems defeating when it comes to others opinion on how to handle the emotional trauma you are facing. I learned to be selectively hearing impaired even thou i am legally deaf LOL. Over the years when dealing with my emotional trauma and anxieties, i found it easier to mentally displace certain interaction and ociations linking to my fears by creatively expressing them. when i am face with hearing something i am not comfortable with i would start to recite a song or visually see things differently. all most seeing right through them. although I have completely removed myself from the socializing aspect of life and keeping to myself. Being a sensitive and having touch with empathy seem to be harder to over come than most. It may not be the healthiest approach but it works for me. Then there's the confrontational part of healing, to face her or them and make know the way it has impacted you, could be a start. not saying you should in turn be the yelling type but sometime hearing your own shouts can feeling justifying and bring some comfort. Just be heard for who you are and how you feel. I wish you the best, Blessed be, be safe, healthy and prosperous with life's riches